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(Wait. You play this first in the background while you’re reading this post:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xPCLNyyxzXQ JUST PLAY IT. OTEI? HAHA!)

 

I was lying in bed, when I thought of this song by The Fray. Heard it after a few years again. Incidentally, I remembered one thing.

Lately, I’ve been into series of unfortunate events. Nothing’s new. I have always been ngarag and bangag at the same time with all the school stuff I’m engaged with. Then again, something came along the way. I can’t say what exactly it is, then again, I know what it is. (Now what was I trying to say here?)

I don’t know when this started, all I knew is that we had few chats, exchange of numbers and we pass by the same hallway at school. There was a lot of in commons, but nobody was really interested.

That was what I thought.

We had our own worlds. After all it was JUST AN ACQUAINTANCE. Nothing special. Just another person to say ‘hi’ at school. Just the person next to me in the office. Just the person I thought they were based on my first impression.

I was not wishing for new best friends. I was not looking for colleagues other than my blockmates. And I was not searching for unbiological siblings. I didn’t find, God gave me.

Soon, there were sincere good morning greetings, shotgun dates and  late night conversations. It was unusual at first. For someone whom I known for so long, yet I didn’t had that opportunity to meet in the middle with them. Then again, it happened.

During the long days of campaign, the fussiness of the MMA exhibit, the tedious hours of PR planning and a whole lot more of our personal shambles, its a wonder how we coincided with each others universe. I just found myself saying ‘take care’ and asking ‘kumain ka na ba?’ which was not really me among my usual tropa in school. I was hesitant to get mushy at first but it was inevitable. Yet, I try to stay as low level mushy as possible ;P

One of the consequences of being this low level mushy, few friends of mine get jealous. I was aware of that. I tried to stay away for a few days. But I was a talkshit. Haha! Bawal nga naman kasi ang ma-pride.

I love all of my friends and I have a bad habit of spoiling them. I was one of those ‘one text away’ persons because I get easily get worried whenever someone needs help. I seldom turn down a friend if he or she wants to walk and pour his/her heart out. For me, time is the only thing I can give them. Its invaluable. With them, its a little bit different. I know, its sort of ikatatampo ng marami but its true.

Most of the time this happens: kadate mo na nga, katext mo pa pag-uwi, kasabay pagpasok, aayain ka mag-ice cream at pagbabawalan kang uminom ng higit sa isang baso ng kape. Eh umayan pala ‘to eh. Joke lang. Di ka na mabiro ngayon ha. Hahaha.

There have been countless moments where I was trying to be strong for others when I myself feel weak. Rarely do I show off a lonely feeling. Most people see me as a happy-go-lucky kid when it comes to unexpected circumstances. Yeah right. But I don’t know how it happened. Sometimes I see myself as a kid telling her mom about a bully playmate whenever I open to them the things depress me. Lalo na siguro nu’ng exhibit na halos pumatay ako ng tao sa inis. They were patient enough to tell me every moment that this too shall pass.

Who would have thought two months would go this far?

Eh akalain mong si MJ, Krizia at Hershey pa iyon.

To my idol bords, my spoiled ones, kakosa, fiance, girlfriends, ka-brad, and secret buddies.. you’ll never know how you made me happy. Love you.

So I hope you guys would Never Say Never..

Some things we don’t talk about
Better do without
Just hold a smile
We’re falling in and out of love
The same damn problem

Together all the while
You can never say never
Why we don’t know when
Time and time again
Younger now then we were before
Don’t let me go,
Don’t let me go,
Don’t let me go,
Don’t let me go,
Don’t let me go,
Don’t let me go

Picture, you’re the queen of everything
As far as the eye can see
Under your command
I will be your guardian
When all is crumbling
Steady your hand

We’re falling apart
And coming together again and again
We’re coming apart
But we pull it together
Pull it together, together again